Grasping Thoughts
The inside of my head is all in a whirl
Too many thoughts for just one young girl
I grab onto a few but can't catch them all
I'm losing my grip and I'm starting to fall.
Everything in here is backwards and sad
Just observing the scene I begin to go mad
I hear the thunderous beating of my tearstained heart
It's felt too much and it's coming apart.
The mindsets are coming and going so fast
As I try desperately to make one of them last
Each one that I reach for I just barely miss
Inches from happiness, seconds from bliss.
I close my eyes and I stretch out my mind
To catch one idea that my emotions can find
I feel one take hold and my brain hangs on tight
I don't stop and look to see if it's right.
I throw myself into the concept I've caught
Not examining the logic of this single thought
I'm determined to reach it whatever the cost
I'm sure it will be worth the things I'll have lost.
Embarrassed, I keep my failures quite hidden from view
I work at it in secret and hide my success, too
I'm alone with my idea and happy this way
No one wants to hear it and I don't know what to say.
With each failure I am devastated and consumed by guilt
Feeling weak and worthless I watch my heart slowly wilt
I was not aware of the pain I'd be in
When I reached out and held on to the fateful word
"THIN"
Stephanie Mayer
Ack1119@aol.com
