Sinking

Sinking deeper into my head
There's no way out
Tormented by thoughts, words, memories
Everything spins
I can't slow it down
I shake
I want it out
"Let it go", he whispers
I know I can't
"Let it go, you'll feel better"
"You'll look better"
I know I can't
I feel like a child
I want to put my fingers in my ears and scream
"I can't hear you"
But it wouldn't work
I always hear him
He's in my head
So I dutifully listen
And let it all go
Even though I know I shouldn't
And he is quiet for a moment

Kim (4/99)

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