Thoughts Deep Inside

I know what my ED needs,
Negative thoughts indeed.
I can sit here and think about qualities I lack,
Now I want my carefree years back.
I can just think of all this and just cry,
But when I think of it I just say "Why"?

As I sit here and for hours just write,
I bring out feelings deep inside,
This is safer than purging,
I think of answers to questions,
And I start really searching.

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The ED Fight

I did not let my ED voice give in,
I found out the main secret to win.
Even though at times these voices are strong,
They really don't stick around for long.
I got a really great new insight,
We can beat this ED if we all fight.
We all have this strength deep inside,
But this ED wants this strength to hide.
Even though we all hear the same ED voices,
But I realized that we make individual choices.
All of this it's all in only your hands,
To decide in what stage this ED stands.