Tug Of War
I am fearless, I am determined, stubborn and very strong.
I am ugly, I am weak and I do everything wrong.
I am smart, I am beautiful and always very happy too.
I am dumb and miserable and I often feel blue.
I am healthy, I am popular, loved and wise.
I am sick, I am lonely, unloved and despised.
I am an open book, a ray of light and generous and kind.
I am private, I am like the shadows, I am selfish with an un-peaceful mind.
I tell my family all of my problems, hurts and woes.
I keep it all inside, locked from even myself and my sorrows only my diary knows.
I am truthful and honest to my family, my friends and myself and I have nothing to hide.
I have a deep, dark secret, I want to tell, a monster whose existence that I have lied.
I have nothing to tell, nothing to say.
I want to tell, I want help, if only I could find a way.
I am not too thin, I am beautiful and I look fine.
I am skin and bones and pale and I know I don't look fine.
I love life, everything is wonderful and I don't want to die.
I hate my life, my body, my helplessness, I know I need help and I don't want to die.
Spooky |
